Haydricht said:
I feel like I’ve bottomed out and I keep putting more and more pressure on myself to be better, and I don’t know how. I don’t know how to sculpt without it looking like shit. I don’t know how to do better lighting. I don’t know how to make skin look more realistic. I don’t know where to start. And it doesn’t help that @lovecrown21 sent this to me, mostly angry about AOC gooning posts but also said this.
“I don't care if you quit and if you do decide to stay, then all I ask is that you watch some more advanced Blender tutorials so I don't have to see Baby's First Blender Render of AOC with fat tits for the 1000th time.”
“I think you're a self-centered retarded gooner that watched a Blender 101 tutorial and made renders of Bleached when this kink was still primarily threads on 4chan's /trash/ and the booru was 1/16th it's popularity. You gained following from that and now you have this ego that you're a big person in Bleached that people should respect. In reality you're a sniveling retard that rides on the coattails of name recognition to fluff your ego and seem more important than you actually are. You're a micro e-celeb that let your 15 minutes of fame determine how you feel about your online persona. Despite being one of the first people in this scene to make white focused raceplay blender renders, you have been surpassed by everyone else in the community. It amazes me that it took you until 2024 to realize that maybe you should actually fuck with the lightning in your renders to ensure they look decent.”
“I would love it if a year from now you were making content for Bleached that even made me, one of your haters, say 'Goddamn Haus you fucking cooked here'. Though something tells me that won't happen. That you'll continue on this path of being a crybaby fvggot that believes there exists this massive deep schism between Haus enjoyers and Haus haters.”
So, I don’t know, if my own community hates me this much, then maybe I overestimated myself. Maybe I’m just past my prime. Maybe I just suck at what I do. I kinda feel like my entire life has fallen apart over the past 12 months, maybe it’s time to go home.
I’m sorry I let all of you down. I really wish I could’ve done better.
Look dude i don't care what kind of autistic drama you and the admin have, but most users of this community appreciate you and cherish the fact that you are like 1 of 5 people that do original bleached content, should you get better at art? Yes, should you just stop replying to bait and political sperging in your PORN art account? yes absolutely now, should you quit the community? no, now buddy i think you should just get out a little bit more interact with the world see some blender tutorials to get better at it, but most importantly just do some fucking good renders you literally don't get better at this if the only thing you do Is sperg on twitter and start drama with literal whos instead of You know doing renders experimenting each time, i really think You should just log in to twitter just to upload your stuff and then dip out, it Will literally help you a lot that you focus on your craft or play vidya.
Tldr: just touch some grass man and do some renders.
