First off, find out why you want to convert.
And this one is quiete simple as you said yourself, its self damaging. If youre a white guy, the blacked community just wants you to kill yourself. It wants to use your sexual interests against you. Most people that are into blacked are loosers that can't do anything better with their life than devouting their whole life to a single kink. You need to realize that even if youre not a white guy, most people that are into blacked arent because of the skin contrast, but because they hate somebody with no reason other than to compesate their own lows.
The reality is, they just want to jerk off to the thought of ruining somebodys life. The fact that you finally realize that it is hurting you and your brain forever. We only have one life, how do you want yourself to spend it? Being a lonely looser because of an internet kink?
Second, get the fuck away from any black stuff. Delete your Reddit, twitter or any other website where you mostly watch your blacked porn. Make yourself fresh accounts on these websites when you really want to. Unbookmark any blacked porn you have saved on your browser, delete anything blacked releated. Just delete your old, worse self. If you want the best for yourself, then burn that shit what hurted you. You will feel free afterwards.
If you have any porn-cravings, you should opress it. Do something more productive with your life.
Distance you and yourself from anything blacked releated. Have no mercy on your past self. Kill it with the delete button! Be proud that you killed that thing that wants to see you dead.
Third, spend more time on here.
this Booru is a mixed bunch of kinks. Some are straight up racist, some are just bleached as a kink, some girls just like white men more. This Booru isnt just "WHITE RACE, SUPERIOR RACE" even if some people want it to be. You can draw borders yourself if you want. If you don't want to see any nazi stuff, theres the blacklist for it! There is enough non-racist porn.
This site is oriented about white men domination. Allthought sometimes theres also something for the small amount of white lesbians that we have here.
Fourth, spend some time on this Forum. For me, this site has been less a porn site and more like a site where i discuss (or argue) with random people all over the world that have the same inetrests like i do.
If you read our posts, discussions and comments, you'll eventually find many arguments against anything blacked releated. You can even find some friends on here. Just follow the first unofficial rule of this booru and don't share jackshit that can identify yourself.
These are my recommendations as a random guy. So yeah