So recently I feel like this whole racist roleplay thing I got going on is starting to bleed into my real life and it's fucking me up mentally and emotionally.
Initially I feel a high of pride and comfort in the hateful things I think and afterwards I feel a wave of guilt and shame that makes me feel like a piece of shit.
I'll most likely take a break for awhile but I wanted to vent.
I don't want to live my real life filled with hate.