AryanSuperSoldier said:
Alright first guy here who’s not going to dismiss you and your troubles. It’s pretty tough being a young person now just being absolutely inundated with copious amounts of porn at a really young age, many kinds of porn that are obscenely degenerate nature, that is extraordinary damaging to one’s psyche growing up.
A lot of people would just say “get over it, don’t take it so seriously, get busy to distract yourself etc” but don’t really understand the neurological and bio chemical imbalances that have caused you (and many others) to be this way. I think the way I’ve managed is by denigrating and then ignoring shit that I know is bad for me psychologically whenever I see it pop up, and trying my best to only view or watch porn that is in some way empowering to me as a white guy. Which just so happens to be in high supply on bleachbooru.
The real issue arises then when the novelty of stuff I find, on this site especially, begins to wear off (the allure of Nazi anime girls basically, and white is right rhetoric lol), but basically the appeal of white glorification porn begins to give less and less dopamine hit as a reward and so I am getting bored or burnt out with porn that is psychologically rewarding but not chemically rewarding. The trick now I guess is basically to pull away from porn entirely now instead of relapsing into some other kind of fucked up kink/fetish and beginning the cycle anew, and certainly not either relapsing or diving into further interracial pornography. which I don’t think is easy for anyone who has been inundated from such young age (like me, you, and many others).
It’s easy to say “tldr stop cranking your jank and touch grass bro”, but the impulse to fap is very strong on someone who is for lack of a better term trapped in a hell of their own unwitting making (ie harmlessly fapping when you were a teenager once every 2 weeks or so, now has become a near daily occurrence to cope with the stresses of your life and escape from the world).
AryanSuperSoldier said:
Alright first guy here who’s not going to dismiss you and your troubles. It’s pretty tough being a young person now just being absolutely inundated with copious amounts of porn at a really young age, many kinds of porn that are obscenely degenerate nature, that is extraordinary damaging to one’s psyche growing up.
A lot of people would just say “get over it, don’t take it so seriously, get busy to distract yourself etc” but don’t really understand the neurological and bio chemical imbalances that have caused you (and many others) to be this way. I think the way I’ve managed is by denigrating and then ignoring shit that I know is bad for me psychologically whenever I see it pop up, and trying my best to only view or watch porn that is in some way empowering to me as a white guy. Which just so happens to be in high supply on bleachbooru.
The real issue arises then when the novelty of stuff I find, on this site especially, begins to wear off (the allure of Nazi anime girls basically, and white is right rhetoric lol), but basically the appeal of white glorification porn begins to give less and less dopamine hit as a reward and so I am getting bored or burnt out with porn that is psychologically rewarding but not chemically rewarding. The trick now I guess is basically to pull away from porn entirely now instead of relapsing into some other kind of fucked up kink/fetish and beginning the cycle anew, and certainly not either relapsing or diving into further interracial pornography. which I don’t think is easy for anyone who has been inundated from such young age (like me, you, and many others).
It’s easy to say “tldr stop cranking your jank and touch grass bro”, but the impulse to fap is very strong on someone who is for lack of a better term trapped in a hell of their own unwitting making (ie harmlessly fapping when you were a teenager once every 2 weeks or so, now has become a near daily occurrence to cope with the stresses of your life and escape from the world).
I just, wish i never saw what i saw, but in the end, the things i hate has carved me into the person i am now.
And, you're right, my life fucking sucks, and porn, the feeling of pleasure for split second is the thing that somehow saves me from harsh reality.
Im not some incel, i just, im fucking lonely. I have friends, yet they are not as good friends as me. Im that typical optimistic guy that jokes around, seriously sometimes i harm my self not in the sense of some suicidical shit, i just do it, because im fucking tired of masturbating and losing my self to some shit, i just cut my arms and shoulders.
So, i figured out that maybe with hate i will be able to truly leave the grasp of what i hate, and atleast control my urges.
